PTD Interview

One word, FAILED, again.

Welcome 2015

Well, it has been ages that I didn't come back to my blog, which I myself also quite forgotten about its existence.

It is now February 2015, a lot of changes in these few years.

• Master achieved in 2013
• Started part-time job in selling things online
• Started working since Nov 2013 as a trainee FBR and now a registered FBR

But I'm still quite lost for my future, I'm not sure what to do. Trying to apply and apply for the PTD, accepted to the stage of interview, but still it is just a false hope in the end. I didn't manage to get through the stage and hop into the government industry.

Expenses is rising day by day, our RM is weaken day by day, but our salary is not rising at all, no increment, only 1 month bonus  (although I know it is better than none like 2014), life sucks. Every month the money is just not enough to cover the monthly expenses. Trying to save here and there, but still, the expenses just come in no where everyday.

I'm trying to earn money, but yet, not every path works well. Yes, sometimes people ask me to join some direct sales like Monavie, Amway, Elken, Nu Skin and etc, but it is not that easy to jump in straight away like anyone do. Each of this need a starting money, may be a few hundred, or some even a few thousand.

Frankly speaking, with not much savings at my age, I am really do not know what can I do right now. Some of my friends at my age have savings of 5 digits, but for me? That is just like a dream.

I used to be rich, like having 5 digits figure in my savings account. But due to wrongly spending style, the figures just gone within ... 2 or 3 months I suppose ..,

I just feel like I'm somehow a failure. Yes, I have acquired my Master in HRD, so what? It doesn't even make me rich like cash. What am I doing now daily is not even related to anything in HRD.

But this post is just a post, just to express what am I feeling recently. I'm just getting tired and tired and more tired.

Cody Simpson (ft. Flo Rida) - Iyiyi

(Cody Simpson)
Cody Simpson, y-yeah

(Flo Rida)
Sh-shawty who dat, who dat, you think always missing you
I-I-I cannot get enough of kissing you
I don't cry-y-y, ok I she'd a tear, or two
On the gri-i-ind, yeah, but girl ain't no forgetting you, cuz

(Cody Simpson)
Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Oh baby whenever I'm gone, I'm wishing I was back home
I can feel your heart when we're apart
Girl I'm on my way, trust every word I say
I can't wait to see your face
And when I said goodbye, I saw the tears in your eyes as you started to cry
I took your hand, and promised I'll be right back
Girl I'm coming right back to see you smile

So girl, what I gotta do to make you see
I mean what I say to you
I'll send you a picture, let you know I miss ya
Girl send me a kiss, I can't wait to see ya

Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Remember when we first met, I had to tell you that
I couldn't live without your love
Baby I must confess, we were the perfect match
You we're a gift sent from above
When you're thinking about me, text 1-4-3
That means I love you girl
I'll be your everything, and all you need
Oh baby, let your heart take the lead

Ooh, so girl, what I gotta do to make you see
I mean what I say to you
I'll send you a picture, let you know I miss ya
Girl send me a kiss, I can't wait to see ya

Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

(Flo verse:)
Lil mama, ain't nobody else, I need you girl
I-I-I got intentions just to please you girl
And I try-y-y, lady that's what you deserve
Superfly-y-y be more precious than a pearl
I can't li-i-ie, pictures in my living room
When I ri-i-ide, dashboard, digital
To the sky-y-y, so thankful that you're in my world
Do or di-i-ie, baby, I ain't kidding you

I don't wanna be your distant man
Tellin me I don't do enough for plans
I really can't afford to let it hit the fan
Girl, every minute I wanna hold your hand
Ain't no limit to the words I'm saying
I don't wanna rock with a brand new band
Just you, lil mama, that's grand
I've been all over the land, and

Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Oh, yeah
I'm missing you

*Video courtesy to YouTube

*Lyrics courtesy to http://www.lyricsmode.com

Bruno Mars - Grenade

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live 
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give 
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss 
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open? 

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash 
You tossed it in the trash, you did 
To give me all your love is all I ever asked 
'Cause what you don't understand is 

I'd catch a grenade for ya 
Throw my hand on a blade for ya 
I'd jump in front of a train for ya 
You know I'd do anything for ya 

I would go through all this pain 
Take a bullet straight through my brain 
Yes, I would die for you, baby 
But you won't do the same 
No, no, no, no 

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb 
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from 
Mad woman, bad woman, that's just what you are, yeah 
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car 

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash 
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did 
To give me all your love is all I ever asked 
'Cause what you don't understand is 

I'd catch a grenade for ya 
Throw my hand on a blade for ya 
I'd jump in front of a train for ya 
You know I'd do anything for ya 

I would go through all this pain 
Take a bullet straight through my brain 
Yes, I would die for ya, baby 
But you won't do the same 

If my body was on fire 
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames 
You said you loved me, you're a liar 
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby 

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya 
Throw my hand on a blade for ya 
I'd jump in front of a train for ya 
You know I'd do anything for ya 
I would go through all this pain 
Take a bullet straight through my brain 
Yes, I would die for you, baby 
But you won't do the same 
No, you won't do the same 
You wouldn't do the same 
Ooh, you never do the same 
No, no, no, no

*Video courtesy to YouTube

*Lyrics courtesy to http://www.metrolyrics.com/grenade-lyrics-bruno-mars.html 

❤ Special dedicated for my love ❤

As a formality, I think I shall introduce my love, Damon Chai, to everyone. But due to our location, I haven't got the chance to let my friends to see the real him. Haha XD But however, I'm gonna make a brief intro of him here.

Damon Chai

Us

Us with our pets

Damon (27 y/o) lives in Puchong, and he's the reason why I always fly to KL recently. We knew each other through FB, somewhere in Nov 2009. We keep in touch, via FB, MSN & HP, sharing problems. Its a surprise that we started our relationship in Dec 2010, for both of us. Sometimes, we keep wondering, how could this happen, but we have no answer. We are happy with what we have now, and we're going to cherish all what we having now.

Bie, its a brand new year of 2011, so let us work hard to achieve our dream ya ^^ love bie ❤❤❤❤❤❤

倪安東(Anthony Neely) - Sorry That I Loved You

FOR ALL OF THE TIMES, THAT I TRIED FOR YOUR SMILE

FOR MAKING YOU THINK, THAT I WAS WORTH THE WHILE

SO YOUR LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE LOVE WOULD BE MINE

FOR SENDING YOU FLOWERS, AND HOLDING YOUR HAND

THAT NO ONE WAS THERE, TO TAKE A STAND

BUT THEN LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, MADE US BLIND

AND I’M SO SORRY THAT I HURT YOU, SORRY THAT I FELL THROUGH

SORRY I WAS FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU

I’M SORRY THAT IT CAME TRUE, BUT SORRY DOESN’T TURN BACK TIME

FOR ALL THAT I HAVE DONE TO YOU, I WISH THAT I COULD MAKE IT RIGHT

SO SORRY THAT I LOVED YOU, SORRY THAT I NEEDED YOU, SORRY THAT I HELD YOU TIGHT

AND I’M SO SORRY FOR…

MAKING YOU LOVE ME, AND SAYING GOODBYE

FOR BEING THE ONE, THAT TAUGHT YOU HOW TO CRY

IT WAS LOVE, LOVE, LOVE AND IT PASSED, US BY

FOR GIVING YOU EVERY THING, THAT YOU DREAMED

FOR TAKING IT BACK, WHEN I FLED THE SCENE

SORRY LOVE, FOR WASTING YOUR TIME

AND I’M SO SORRY THAT I HURT YOU, SORRY THAT I FELL THROUGH

SORRY I WAS FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU

I’M SORRY THAT IT CAME TRUE, BUT SORRY DOESN’T TURN BACK TIME

FOR ALL THAT I HAVE DONE TO YOU, I WISH THAT I COULD MAKE IT RIGHT

SO SORRY THAT I LOVED YOU, SORRY THAT I NEEDED YOU, SORRY THAT I HELD YOU TIGHT

AN APOLOGY NOW, AFTER ALL OF THIS TIME, WON’T MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE TONIGHT

BUT I’M HOPING “I’M SORRY” WILL OPEN YOUR MIND, TO LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE IN YOUR LIFE

AND I’M SO SORRY THAT I HURT YOU, SORRY THAT I FELL THROUGH

SORRY I WAS FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU

I’M SORRY THAT IT CAME TRUE, BUT SORRY DOESN’T TURN BACK TIME

FOR ALL THAT I HAVE DONE TO YOU, I WISH THAT I COULD MAKE IT RIGHT

SO SORRY THAT I HURT YOU, SORRY THAT I FELL THROUGH, SORRY I WAS FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU

I’M SORRY THAT IT CAME TRUE, BUT SORRY DOESN’T TURN BACK TIME

I’M SORRY THAT I LOVED YOU, I’M SORRY THAT I HURT YOU

I’M SO SORRY THAT I LOVED YOU, I’M SO SORRY THAT I HURT YOU

SORRY THAT I LOVED YOU

*Video courtesy to YouTube

*Lyrics courtesy to SingKLyrics.com

A day to relax

20 January 2011 - Thursday - Sunny - 2134


It is Thaipusam today, and I have a day off. So, according to what I planned ahead, I bathed little Blackie, clean up his room, change his "mattress", and do have some fun with him. My sis gave him a pacifier as he keeps on biting our fingers and toes.

After that, my mum and I went to bring my niece back from school and sending her to taska day care centre. Then, we went to saloon to do our hair. My mum curled her hair 2 days ago, and then she said she wants to dye some color on it. haha!! So, I decided to trim my hair & touch-up the black hair to blonde.

Tomorrow Friday, and I'm flying off to KL again, to meet my bie & to take my new phone HTC Desire HD. Hooray!! I miss my bie so much .. hehe .. Can't wait to meet him. We plan for some activities for this weekend, to spend our time together. Hopefully nothing clash and I'm sure we will have a great time together ^_^


20 January 2011 - Thursday - Sunny - 2147