Monday, April 25, 2016

Before I Let You Go

Before I Let You Go - Freestyle (with lyrics)

Remarkable Date in My Life - 22 April 2016

22 April 2016 - marks the end for me as a player gamer, as I've decided to quit all the online games I have in my tablet and phone.

In March 2016, I was told by one of my friend that she is actually playing her first online named Summoners War (in short, SW). This name sounded familiar to me so I downloaded back and realized that it was actually a game I did downloaded and played and uninstalled, as I didn't know how to play at the first place (although I've completed the tutorial). So, ended up I was back to this game, and continued to play with my friend, and got to know some new friends as well in the game.

In one month time, I got to know those so-called senior players in SW in the Filipino channel - 135, where majorities are from Philippines, while on the other hand my friend is from Indonesia, and me myself from Malaysia. We mixed around, chit-chatted, they taught me how to play better in SW and etc. Too, I get to know some Malaysia SW players, joined them in the guild and even met them in real.

But however, things happened and ruined off everything. SW used to be the one and only way for me to de-stress myself away from everything, but ended up I had to let it go, as I do not know what else can I do apart from quitting it. It was hard for me to let go, but I know I must let it go, I can't stay in the game anymore with such a feeling. If I further stay in the game, I will definitely couldn't stop everything in places. The only way to stop it is to stay away from the game, stay away from the people, and quit it. Hence, after I bid fare-well to my guildies and people in 135, I quitted the game, and uninstalled the game. 

I know it's a sorry to you, you asked me to stay in the game, and you said you will be the one who quit the game; but I remembered you told me you love SW, so let me be the one who take the responsibility and quit it. So, that you can just stay in the game and continue to have fun. Thanks for all guidance and companionship you given to me in the game, it is really a very sweet memory from you, and I appreciate it. Just that there's no longer a reason for me to go back in SW, anymore.

It's a sad thing to say good-bye to you.
Tears rolling in the eyes that night while chatting with you, but you won't know that.
Heart felt pain while bidding good-bye to you, but you won't know that.

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Welcome 2015

Well, it has been ages that I didn't come back to my blog, which I myself also quite forgotten about its existence.

It is now February 2015, a lot of changes in these few years.


  • Master achieved in 2013
  • Started part-time job in selling things online
  • Started working since Nov 2013 as a trainee FBR and now a registered FBR


But I'm still quite lost for my future, I'm not sure what to do. Trying to apply and apply for the PTD, accepted to the stage of interview, but still it is just a false hope in the end. I didn't manage to get through the stage and hop into the government industry.

Expenses is rising day by day, our RM is weaken day by day, but our salary is not rising at all, no increment, only 1 month bonus  (although I know it is better than none like 2014), life sucks. Every month the money is just not enough to cover the monthly expenses. Trying to save here and there, but still, the expenses just come in no where everyday.

I'm trying to earn money, but yet, not every path works well. Yes, sometimes people ask me to join some direct sales like Monavie, Amway, Elken, Nu Skin and etc, but it is not that easy to jump in straight away like anyone do. Each of this need a starting money, may be a few hundred, or some even a few thousand.

Frankly speaking, with not much savings at my age, I am really do not know what can I do right now. Some of my friends at my age have savings of 5 digits, but for me? That is just like a dream.

I used to be rich, like having 5 digits figure in my savings account. But due to wrongly spending style, the figures just gone within ... 2 or 3 months I suppose ..,

I just feel like I'm somehow a failure. Yes, I have acquired my Master in HRD, so what? It doesn't even make me rich like cash. What am I doing now daily is not even related to anything in HRD.

But this post is just a post, just to express what am I feeling recently. I'm just getting tired and tired and more tired.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Cody Simpson (ft. Flo Rida) - Iyiyi


(Cody Simpson)
Cody Simpson, y-yeah

(Flo Rida)
Sh-shawty who dat, who dat, you think always missing you
I-I-I cannot get enough of kissing you
I don't cry-y-y, ok I she'd a tear, or two
On the gri-i-ind, yeah, but girl ain't no forgetting you, cuz

(Cody Simpson)
Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Oh baby whenever I'm gone, I'm wishing I was back home
I can feel your heart when we're apart
Girl I'm on my way, trust every word I say
I can't wait to see your face
And when I said goodbye, I saw the tears in your eyes as you started to cry
I took your hand, and promised I'll be right back
Girl I'm coming right back to see you smile

So girl, what I gotta do to make you see
I mean what I say to you
I'll send you a picture, let you know I miss ya
Girl send me a kiss, I can't wait to see ya

Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Remember when we first met, I had to tell you that
I couldn't live without your love
Baby I must confess, we were the perfect match
You we're a gift sent from above
When you're thinking about me, text 1-4-3
That means I love you girl
I'll be your everything, and all you need
Oh baby, let your heart take the lead

Ooh, so girl, what I gotta do to make you see
I mean what I say to you
I'll send you a picture, let you know I miss ya
Girl send me a kiss, I can't wait to see ya

Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

(Flo verse:)
Lil mama, ain't nobody else, I need you girl
I-I-I got intentions just to please you girl
And I try-y-y, lady that's what you deserve
Superfly-y-y be more precious than a pearl
I can't li-i-ie, pictures in my living room
When I ri-i-ide, dashboard, digital
To the sky-y-y, so thankful that you're in my world
Do or di-i-ie, baby, I ain't kidding you

I don't wanna be your distant man
Tellin me I don't do enough for plans
I really can't afford to let it hit the fan
Girl, every minute I wanna hold your hand
Ain't no limit to the words I'm saying
I don't wanna rock with a brand new band
Just you, lil mama, that's grand
I've been all over the land, and

Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Oh, yeah
I'm missing you

*Video courtesy to YouTube
*Lyrics courtesy to http://www.lyricsmode.com

Bruno Mars - Grenade


Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live 
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give 
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss 
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open? 

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash 
You tossed it in the trash, you did 
To give me all your love is all I ever asked 
'Cause what you don't understand is 

I'd catch a grenade for ya 
Throw my hand on a blade for ya 
I'd jump in front of a train for ya 
You know I'd do anything for ya 

I would go through all this pain 
Take a bullet straight through my brain 
Yes, I would die for you, baby 
But you won't do the same 
No, no, no, no 

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb 
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from 
Mad woman, bad woman, that's just what you are, yeah 
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car 

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash 
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did 
To give me all your love is all I ever asked 
'Cause what you don't understand is 

I'd catch a grenade for ya 
Throw my hand on a blade for ya 
I'd jump in front of a train for ya 
You know I'd do anything for ya 

I would go through all this pain 
Take a bullet straight through my brain 
Yes, I would die for ya, baby 
But you won't do the same 

If my body was on fire 
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames 
You said you loved me, you're a liar 
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby 

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya 
Throw my hand on a blade for ya 
I'd jump in front of a train for ya 
You know I'd do anything for ya 
I would go through all this pain 
Take a bullet straight through my brain 
Yes, I would die for you, baby 
But you won't do the same 
No, you won't do the same 
You wouldn't do the same 
Ooh, you never do the same 
No, no, no, no

*Video courtesy to YouTube
*Lyrics courtesy to http://www.metrolyrics.com/grenade-lyrics-bruno-mars.html 

❤ Special dedicated for my love ❤

As a formality, I think I shall introduce my love, Damon Chai, to everyone. But due to our location, I haven't got the chance to let my friends to see the real him. Haha XD But however, I'm gonna make a brief intro of him here.

Damon Chai
Us
Us with our pets
Damon (27 y/o) lives in Puchong, and he's the reason why I always fly to KL recently. We knew each other through FB, somewhere in Nov 2009. We keep in touch, via FB, MSN & HP, sharing problems. Its a surprise that we started our relationship in Dec 2010, for both of us. Sometimes, we keep wondering, how could this happen, but we have no answer. We are happy with what we have now, and we're going to cherish all what we having now.

Bie, its a brand new year of 2011, so let us work hard to achieve our dream ya ^^ love bie