Monday, November 13, 2017

50 Shades of Grey and it gets darker

《Fifty Shades of Grey》 is a movie originated from the same name novel trilogy:

* Fifty Shades of Grey
* Fifty Shades Darker
* Fifty Shades Freed

The novel was published in 2011 while the first movie was released in 2015, and the movie was starred by Jamie Dornan (as Christian Grey) and Dakota Johnson (as Anastasia Steele).

This movie is an erotic romance movie where it has the element of sexual practices involving bondage/discipline, dominance/submission, and sadism/masochism (BDSM). And it also simply depicts the beauty of common people encounter with a millionaire, falling in love with each other, and how Anastasia learn to get along with the unique sexual taste of Christian, although she ran away from Christian at the end of 《Fifty Shades of Grey》but they both met and got back together in 《Fifty Shades Darker》.

I actually started to watched 《Fifty Shades of Grey》in 2015, but only like quarter of it and then stopped, until yesterday. I have finally finished watching both 《Fifty Shades of Grey》and 《Fifty Shades Darker》yesterday. These movies brought me too many pictures (not the BDSM elements), but about the love between the common people and the rich, imagine an ordinary college student falling in love with a millionaire CEO, this is a plot which only happens in novel or movies, and never in reality.

I know it is ridiculous to have what Ana had in the movies (not the BDSM please), but I'm very envy of her luck for meeting a young, handsome and rich CEO, and he loves her in return, and his family all accepted her in a very nice way. Every woman wish her other half is handsome and rich, so do I. Love and life is inseparable, we all need love and money to continue our lives, either in an easy way or the hard way.

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

2017 almost come to an end

It's been sometime since I last updated this blog. Too many things happened at once, I do not know what to do first, and all tear me into pieces.

Working life
Stress as usual, nothing different. Been doing trading in derivatives in my day-to-day routines, doing planning, trying to do expansion and etc. Not much changes, but stress as usual.

Life progress
Well, there are a few of achievement though:


  • May/June 2016 - went to the first ever family trip together with my sister and brother and my mum
  • Sept 2016 - bought an unit of apartment for the first time in my life
  • Dec 2016 - moved into the new unit, started a new life as loan bearer
  • Feb 2017 - adopted first puppy after so long, and her name is Piggy
  • Aug/Sept 2017 - fostered 2 stray puppies and then adopted one of them, while another one was being adopted by kind soul. I adopted Vanilla, and Brownie was being adopted by other.
  • Oct 2017 
    • Fall in love with Perfect sung by Ed Sheeran, a song that gave me so much of impact and pictures 
    • went to Mayday concert live in KL for the first time ever in my life, and it was an unforgettable experience for me
Life has been becoming more and more miserable to me right now. I start to feel loss of direction, I even thought of ending my own life, I myself was in shocked when this thought came into my mind. It has been always a stupid things I ever thought of committing suicide, but then the thought came into my mind in silence, and it shocked me. Obviously, I didn't make this thought becoming an action, else I won't be here updating my blog,

Well, life still has to go on no matter what, I need to learn how to cope it, harder and harder. Suicide is not a solution, but it is only an excuse to escape from the reality, and leave the sorrows to those who remain.

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Welcome 2015

Well, it has been ages that I didn't come back to my blog, which I myself also quite forgotten about its existence.

It is now February 2015, a lot of changes in these few years.


  • Master achieved in 2013
  • Started part-time job in selling things online
  • Started working since Nov 2013 as a trainee FBR and now a registered FBR


But I'm still quite lost for my future, I'm not sure what to do. Trying to apply and apply for the PTD, accepted to the stage of interview, but still it is just a false hope in the end. I didn't manage to get through the stage and hop into the government industry.

Expenses is rising day by day, our RM is weaken day by day, but our salary is not rising at all, no increment, only 1 month bonus  (although I know it is better than none like 2014), life sucks. Every month the money is just not enough to cover the monthly expenses. Trying to save here and there, but still, the expenses just come in no where everyday.

I'm trying to earn money, but yet, not every path works well. Yes, sometimes people ask me to join some direct sales like Monavie, Amway, Elken, Nu Skin and etc, but it is not that easy to jump in straight away like anyone do. Each of this need a starting money, may be a few hundred, or some even a few thousand.

Frankly speaking, with not much savings at my age, I am really do not know what can I do right now. Some of my friends at my age have savings of 5 digits, but for me? That is just like a dream.

I used to be rich, like having 5 digits figure in my savings account. But due to wrongly spending style, the figures just gone within ... 2 or 3 months I suppose ..,

I just feel like I'm somehow a failure. Yes, I have acquired my Master in HRD, so what? It doesn't even make me rich like cash. What am I doing now daily is not even related to anything in HRD.

But this post is just a post, just to express what am I feeling recently. I'm just getting tired and tired and more tired.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Cody Simpson (ft. Flo Rida) - Iyiyi


(Cody Simpson)
Cody Simpson, y-yeah

(Flo Rida)
Sh-shawty who dat, who dat, you think always missing you
I-I-I cannot get enough of kissing you
I don't cry-y-y, ok I she'd a tear, or two
On the gri-i-ind, yeah, but girl ain't no forgetting you, cuz

(Cody Simpson)
Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Oh baby whenever I'm gone, I'm wishing I was back home
I can feel your heart when we're apart
Girl I'm on my way, trust every word I say
I can't wait to see your face
And when I said goodbye, I saw the tears in your eyes as you started to cry
I took your hand, and promised I'll be right back
Girl I'm coming right back to see you smile

So girl, what I gotta do to make you see
I mean what I say to you
I'll send you a picture, let you know I miss ya
Girl send me a kiss, I can't wait to see ya

Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Remember when we first met, I had to tell you that
I couldn't live without your love
Baby I must confess, we were the perfect match
You we're a gift sent from above
When you're thinking about me, text 1-4-3
That means I love you girl
I'll be your everything, and all you need
Oh baby, let your heart take the lead

Ooh, so girl, what I gotta do to make you see
I mean what I say to you
I'll send you a picture, let you know I miss ya
Girl send me a kiss, I can't wait to see ya

Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

(Flo verse:)
Lil mama, ain't nobody else, I need you girl
I-I-I got intentions just to please you girl
And I try-y-y, lady that's what you deserve
Superfly-y-y be more precious than a pearl
I can't li-i-ie, pictures in my living room
When I ri-i-ide, dashboard, digital
To the sky-y-y, so thankful that you're in my world
Do or di-i-ie, baby, I ain't kidding you

I don't wanna be your distant man
Tellin me I don't do enough for plans
I really can't afford to let it hit the fan
Girl, every minute I wanna hold your hand
Ain't no limit to the words I'm saying
I don't wanna rock with a brand new band
Just you, lil mama, that's grand
I've been all over the land, and

Every minute, every second, every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Every hour of the day
Iyiyi
Everytime that I'm away
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Every moment that is stolen, it can never be replaced
Iyiyi
Even if it's for a day
Iyiyi
I'm a text you up to say
Iyiyi
Missing you, missing you

Oh, yeah
I'm missing you

*Video courtesy to YouTube
*Lyrics courtesy to http://www.lyricsmode.com

Bruno Mars - Grenade


Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live 
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give 
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss 
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open? 

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash 
You tossed it in the trash, you did 
To give me all your love is all I ever asked 
'Cause what you don't understand is 

I'd catch a grenade for ya 
Throw my hand on a blade for ya 
I'd jump in front of a train for ya 
You know I'd do anything for ya 

I would go through all this pain 
Take a bullet straight through my brain 
Yes, I would die for you, baby 
But you won't do the same 
No, no, no, no 

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb 
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from 
Mad woman, bad woman, that's just what you are, yeah 
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car 

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash 
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did 
To give me all your love is all I ever asked 
'Cause what you don't understand is 

I'd catch a grenade for ya 
Throw my hand on a blade for ya 
I'd jump in front of a train for ya 
You know I'd do anything for ya 

I would go through all this pain 
Take a bullet straight through my brain 
Yes, I would die for ya, baby 
But you won't do the same 

If my body was on fire 
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames 
You said you loved me, you're a liar 
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby 

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya 
Throw my hand on a blade for ya 
I'd jump in front of a train for ya 
You know I'd do anything for ya 
I would go through all this pain 
Take a bullet straight through my brain 
Yes, I would die for you, baby 
But you won't do the same 
No, you won't do the same 
You wouldn't do the same 
Ooh, you never do the same 
No, no, no, no

*Video courtesy to YouTube
*Lyrics courtesy to http://www.metrolyrics.com/grenade-lyrics-bruno-mars.html