2017 almost come to an end

It's been sometime since I last updated this blog. Too many things happened at once, I do not know what to do first, and all tear me into pieces.

Working life

Stress as usual, nothing different. Been doing trading in derivatives in my day-to-day routines, doing planning, trying to do expansion and etc. Not much changes, but stress as usual.

Life progress

Well, there are a few of achievement though:

• May/June 2016 - went to the first ever family trip together with my sister and brother and my mum
• Sept 2016 - bought an unit of apartment for the first time in my life
• Dec 2016 - moved into the new unit, started a new life as loan bearer
• Feb 2017 - adopted first puppy after so long, and her name is Piggy
• Aug/Sept 2017 - fostered 2 stray puppies and then adopted one of them, while another one was being adopted by kind soul. I adopted Vanilla, and Brownie was being adopted by other.
• Oct 2017 
• Fall in love with Perfect sung by Ed Sheeran, a song that gave me so much of impact and pictures 
• went to Mayday concert live in KL for the first time ever in my life, and it was an unforgettable experience for me

Life has been becoming more and more miserable to me right now. I start to feel loss of direction, I even thought of ending my own life, I myself was in shocked when this thought came into my mind. It has been always a stupid things I ever thought of committing suicide, but then the thought came into my mind in silence, and it shocked me. Obviously, I didn't make this thought becoming an action, else I won't be here updating my blog,

Well, life still has to go on no matter what, I need to learn how to cope it, harder and harder. Suicide is not a solution, but it is only an excuse to escape from the reality, and leave the sorrows to those who remain.