50 Shades of Grey and it gets darker

《Fifty Shades of Grey》 is a movie originated from the same name novel trilogy：

* Fifty Shades of Grey

* Fifty Shades Darker

* Fifty Shades Freed

The novel was published in 2011 while the first movie was released in 2015, and the movie was starred by Jamie Dornan (as Christian Grey) and Dakota Johnson (as Anastasia Steele).

This movie is an erotic romance movie where it has the element of sexual practices involving bondage/discipline, dominance/submission, and sadism/masochism (BDSM). And it also simply depicts the beauty of common people encounter with a millionaire, falling in love with each other, and how Anastasia learn to get along with the unique sexual taste of Christian, although she ran away from Christian at the end of 《Fifty Shades of Grey》but they both met and got back together in 《Fifty Shades Darker》.

I actually started to watched 《Fifty Shades of Grey》in 2015, but only like quarter of it and then stopped, until yesterday. I have finally finished watching both 《Fifty Shades of Grey》and 《Fifty Shades Darker》yesterday. These movies brought me too many pictures (not the BDSM elements), but about the love between the common people and the rich, imagine an ordinary college student falling in love with a millionaire CEO, this is a plot which only happens in novel or movies, and never in reality.

I know it is ridiculous to have what Ana had in the movies (not the BDSM please), but I'm very envy of her luck for meeting a young, handsome and rich CEO, and he loves her in return, and his family all accepted her in a very nice way. Every woman wish her other half is handsome and rich, so do I. Love and life is inseparable, we all need love and money to continue our lives, either in an easy way or the hard way.

Perfect by Ed Sheeran

A perfect song, named Perfect, sung by a perfect singer, named Ed Sheeran.

2017 almost come to an end

It's been sometime since I last updated this blog. Too many things happened at once, I do not know what to do first, and all tear me into pieces.

Working life

Stress as usual, nothing different. Been doing trading in derivatives in my day-to-day routines, doing planning, trying to do expansion and etc. Not much changes, but stress as usual.

Life progress

Well, there are a few of achievement though:

• May/June 2016 - went to the first ever family trip together with my sister and brother and my mum
• Sept 2016 - bought an unit of apartment for the first time in my life
• Dec 2016 - moved into the new unit, started a new life as loan bearer
• Feb 2017 - adopted first puppy after so long, and her name is Piggy
• Aug/Sept 2017 - fostered 2 stray puppies and then adopted one of them, while another one was being adopted by kind soul. I adopted Vanilla, and Brownie was being adopted by other.
• Oct 2017 
• Fall in love with Perfect sung by Ed Sheeran, a song that gave me so much of impact and pictures 
• went to Mayday concert live in KL for the first time ever in my life, and it was an unforgettable experience for me

Life has been becoming more and more miserable to me right now. I start to feel loss of direction, I even thought of ending my own life, I myself was in shocked when this thought came into my mind. It has been always a stupid things I ever thought of committing suicide, but then the thought came into my mind in silence, and it shocked me. Obviously, I didn't make this thought becoming an action, else I won't be here updating my blog,

Well, life still has to go on no matter what, I need to learn how to cope it, harder and harder. Suicide is not a solution, but it is only an excuse to escape from the reality, and leave the sorrows to those who remain.